I don’t normally write these kinda things down.. but this one really hurts more than anything I have felt before. I feel so alone and used and disregarded it’s like a literal knife through my heart. If anyone sticks around I appreciate it but I think this might just help me think things through.

I loved this girl. We met when I first moved back to my hometown and the moment I laid eyes on her I fell in love. We had such a good time together for so long.. but life got so complicated.. we ended up living together after a year and it was going really well. But she got pregnant about 6 months into moving together and we both decided it was best to go through with an abortion because of the state of the world and how everything felt like it was about to collapse. ( hate me if you want I struggle with this everyday) But after that things started to go downhill. We argued a lot and it got to the point where she’d be gone all day and I ended up texting other girls and I guess I cheated in that way. We broke up because she found that but I guess she had been seeing a guy the whole time.... I found out through her friend and not her. Needless to say we broke up and went silent for about 6 months.

Flash forward to the end of that time frame and I couldn’t get over her.. so I talked to her and we ended up getting back together. I couldn’t let my mistakes get in the way of my love for her and I couldn’t and didn’t want to quit the relationship because I had so much love for this girl. But now in these recent months.. it’s the same thing. It’s hard to get her to talk to me.. she barely seems interested when she’s not around.. but yet when she was around she still made me feel like home. She recently told me that she has to move.. because her parents are kicking her out. So we’ve been struggling with that.. but I bought a ring and proposed to her, at the place where we first kissed at our first date. I told her I’d move anywhere with her and do anything for her. She didn’t give me an answer and said we needed to talk about it the next morning.

Then the next morning comes around.. and I start calling and texting her because I’m really upset and want to figure it out. I might have texted her a little too much but I was really upset.. and then her number finally rang my phone and turns out.. she had a boyfriend for two weeks without telling me. He said he would get a restraining order put on me and would call the cops if I texted or called her again. She told him that we broke up weeks ago but told me we would work it out through the move.

About a month prior to that her friend told me she was seeing someone else too. I asked her about it and she said no, and I believed her. I asked the guy who called me this morning and it wasn’t even the same person.. the other guy had a kid and I asked this guy if he had a kid, and he said no. she blames me because I texted those girls all that time ago.. she says she’s doing that and saw the other guy because I texted those girls and she can’t trust me now. I guess I really feel like I ruined my soulmate..

no one cares normalfag. try living your entire life without getting sexual validation from anybody let alone a soulmate, then you get to bitch and whine here. normalfags having normalfag problems belong on normalfag sites

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LOL I mistook this for an object thread because of the length and gayness of the OP
If you're a dude, stop being gay. You want PUSSY, not faggot feelings

P69476
soul mates are real quit being a meanie

P69479
op here, am I a simp or what?
I have been thinking of suicide and can't get over her tho

P69483
do you have any other options normalfag?

by that i mean other girls

P69487
no i ruined myself aka my looks with bad choices in my younger years
basically girls dry up when they see me

she was my sould mate i believe

P69483
Suicide is the most niggerlicious thing you can do.
Hoes don't mean shit. They just have an advantage over you for now because they develop their narcissistic manipulation patterns way before men develop the wisdom to see right through it.
This is why, historically, much older men were paired with much younger women. It prevents the woman from becoming the ruler; she is unfit to be in a position of power.
You can thank Anglos for shitting up the world with feminism and same-age pairing. Now stop being a bitch, love is fake.

P69476
This. There's no such thing. It's just chemicals in your head trying to get your to reproduce. Best look for "Ms. Good Enough". The moment you feel "something is off" you yank her chain and she best come back. If not, move to the next. Women are very cold hearted creatures. That is why they are so cold all the time. In all likeliness, she'd moved on and forgot you.

t. knower

Also, you fucked up there
>abortion
and
>texting other girls
there

P69489
yeah but i'm a bad person
>now because they develop their narcissistic manipulation patterns way before men develop the wisdom to see right through it.
i am a narcisist tho see my Sow the Seeds of Chaos II P69468 thread

>shitting up the world with feminism
her linkedin says she/her and she died her hair
she didn't want the abortion but she said in college they told her it wasn't that bad in the classes she took previous to us living together.

P69493
Fake and gay, that's not your thread.

>>P69490
>Women are very cold hearted creatures. That is why they are so cold all the time.
like a reptilian or lizard?

>I guess she had been seeing a guy the whole time....
NOt YoUR SoULMaTe

P69483
>I have been thinking of suicide
you really should kill yourself

P69474
I haven't had sex in a few years what does that make me?
Not virgin so idk what that means

P69554
Horny.

Love is mostly not worth it because people have egos and stuff just cut your dick off and find a better purpose to live for.

P69577
women have free will to do wat they want if they truly love you they will use their free will to choose you. op is a gigaretard who should kill themself

P69554
lol p cringe thats worse then being a sexless incel like the ones here

P69617
women shouldn't have that free will in the first place

P69636
why m8 ?

[bold: BRING BACK HITTING WOMEN!]

also op should commit sudoku

>Needless to say we broke up and went silent for about 6 months.
6 months and 6 feet appart for social distancing with mask on...

P69691
stop being such a socialist...