back after spending a whole day cooming
failed nofap after 25 days
current mood: never wanna see a woman in front of me ever again
its kinda weird that literally yesterday i was totally interested in getting more and more female attention, but rn id probably high kick them in the face if one tried to talk to me
its no fucking wonder there is no objective truth, everything depends on how you are feeling
i can go from thinking im a wretch that should stay away from others, to wanting to be around others all the time, to wanting to left alone based on nothing but my mood
and which one should i do? idk rn i feel like being alone
i busted 4 nuts today, wow its like i instantly went back to being a coomer
addiction reset my ass
maybe it would actually take a full month for that, but i couldnt even get to the bare minimum of 28 to be considered a month lol what a disappointment
anyway after beating it the first time i went straight to sleep because i felt extremely tired
now i understand where the idea of sexual vital energy and legends like succubus come from
i didnt feel this before probably because i was already used to being in a constant post-orgasm state, but fucking hell i really feel like a demon sucked half of my life energy
i really need to find something to do on weekends srsly
i should probably go on another scavenge hunt and download a bunch of games to play during weekends bc browsing ibs was a mistake
or idk start a cool project, when i start a good one i sometimes even forget to eat
but eh im so out of ideas lately
maybe i could try gamedev but eehhhhhh idk idk its requires so many different skills like drawing, composing
ig i could just rip off what i cant do myself
meh im out of inspiration for things to do
maybe i could invite ppl to go out, but i already talk about how idk how to do that
also i dont have a cellphone
anyway here are a few notes for next month:
>dont browse ibs at all (this one is alright, ppl hardly post porn)
>write a todo list of stuff i need to get done so i have something to do on weekends other than mindlessly browsing the web
>actually, plan my weekends ahead of time
good thing ill be extra busy next month so it will be easier not to coom during the week, but weekends are still a problem
maybe i should explore the city and see if i can find something next weekend
dance classes would be pretty cool tbh
i could also create an irc so my fellow glags can keep me company, i think its loneliness more than anything that brings me down
i have one configured already, just need to make it go live
alternatively i can get my razor and make a nasty cut on my cock so it cant get hard without hurting a lot idk lmao thats so crazy it might actually work
oh yea and my deathgrip was overkill for how sensitive my penis was after so long
id probably not have lasted 5 seconds with that, so i loosened the grip to last longer
so i ended up edging for 3 hours lol
well it was fun in the moment but it sucks that i lost my superpowers for such a fleeting pleasure smh
also its weird how i forgot that 2d>3d, i mean, regular 3dpd porn was fine, but they really cant ever compete with 2d perfection
like i really dont understand why women even bother with that anymore, they are completely obsolete in that regard
3d pigs are so disgusting that i really think that fapping to them instead of cute 2d girls is what should be considered a paraphilia
i mean, the human body is objectively disgusting
god was out of his mind when he thought making the genitals very close to the shithole and adding a bunch of hair to it was a good idea
really makes me question the whole "intelligent design" thing
animegirl are fine since they dont poop nor pee nor do anything that is remotely gross like burping
except when the burp is cute
uh yea im probably not feel so bad about it as i should
maybe im just optimistic that next month will be better
buuuuut with the no fap september i kinda wanna skip it so i dont feel like a retard falling for a meme
whatever, its not like im doing it just for the meme
/blogpost
oh uh my saint patron lux myth is probably disappointed in me, ill be sure to pray for his forgiveness tonight before bed

just took a bath
feeling squeaky clean
i just remembered i wanted to create a website for me, but idk what i would post there
if im just gonna ramble then a gopherhole would be better
and i just remembered of something called "digital garden"
they are kinda like personal wikis where you write about stuff that interests you
but instead of writing informative articles about stuff, you write about your personal perception of it
so on the article about coffee, instead of writing about the chemestry of it or how it affects you, i instead rant about why drinking coffee is the most soylent thing the world right after eating tofu
i found this https://github.com/MaggieAppleton/digital-gardeners a long time ago but never did much with it
anyway it would be nice to start a garden with the most prolix glags here, like faggotchan and anao
denpa is retired but he is welcome too
yuki is schizophrenic and writing personal essays is probably an absolute no-no according to his opsec
idk if any of the software there allows for multiple authors, and idk how to prepare my server for multiple users
n-not that i think any of you are malicious or anything! >///<

oh and about the irc server, i remember a while ago idol posted some suggestions to make the server glow less by editing the source code
i would do that, but i forgot where it was posted

oh i just realized that git is probably good enough for a collaborative website lol
idk why i thought it would be more complicated than that
i was already thinking about autistic ssh setups, but nah if the software just reads textfiles to generate the articles then yea we can just use git

its weird how now i kinda feel like writing a lot
maybe a side effect of cooming
i thought its was supposed to cause brainfog tho, but it seems that it cleared it
which is why i started to remember all that stuff
well tbf i was trying to come up with things to do to distract myself later
anyway i was think about this so i will now ramble about the similarities between personal writing and videos
ok so at the dawn of the internet ppl would need to run their own server and it was hard so only the technically inclined (nerds) would do that
they would invent something called "web log" or weblog and soon simply blog
they would write "logs" (similar to captain logs) about their lives, like a diary
they were basically larping as cyberpunks sharing data across the world, which isnt far from the truth
anyway, ig sharing your thoughts with others is a basic human impulse, because it became very popular and everybody wanted to do that
but since taking care of your own server was such a pain in the ass, hosts offered to host people's blogs for them
like geocities and wordpress
it was great for a time
a lot of very creative websites
geocities is dead, but neocities carries its legacy as a host for people to create their own websites
i like this creative autistic side of the internet
there was even a decent female presence, before tumblr kidnapped all of them
oh yea tumblr was one of the blog hosts, too bad its so cringe nowadays
i have some ideas on why that happened and could ramble about it, but i wont
even though its female dominated, i dont think thats the reason it went to shit
anyway back on topic
apparently writing long texts is too much hassle for most people (case in point: most ibs)
so then twitter showed up and the concept of microblogging almost killed classical blogging
ig you could say it killed it, since its not as popular anymore outside of autistic circles
probably bc normies just wanna make quick remarks about what they are doing and not waste too much time with it
fair enough, i like letting my fake internet friends know what im doing, its nice
but i seems kinda bland if you dont ramble about it just a little bit
but yea now ppl dont wanna write more than 15 characters per post (or whatever is the limit on twitter rn)
so now about videos
likewise originally ppl needed to host their own websites to host their videos
except nobody did that because videos are extremely bandwidth-intensive, and back in the 90s recording yourself talking instead of just writing text was insane
then youtube showed up (im sure a lot a shit happened between that and this but im not too savvy on that)
and suddenly ppl could talk instead of write, so they invented the "video log" or vlog for short
basically the same as a blog, but with video+audio instead of text
if you think about it, thats pretty stupid
audio-only would be more than enough for most cases, since the video would just be some fugly kid making autistic faces
i digress
i could also rant on the marvel that is youtube from a technologistic pov and why whiny youtubers are a bunch of ungrateful brats, but im trying to stay on topic
so with youtube solving all the hard problems involving distributing video files over the internet in an easy way, ppl started getting as creative as they were with blogs, if not more
im a big fan of the video essay format, personally
even though a lot of it is trash lol
i just like hearing ppl's opinions, like how i like reading text essays on their personal blogs
so again, normies love the idea of making videos for everybody on the internet, yet sitting down and recording something meaningful is too much work for them
so here comes tiktok and what might as well be called "micro vlogging"
so now everybody's mom and their dogs has a tiktok account where they post cringe dances and memes and short remarks
and this is probably the pinnacle of human communication
video is more popular than text, so it makes sense
i wonder if there will be a next big thing like that
the metaverse surely aint it, not only it is a total flop already, but also i dont see how that would allow the masses to make quick and easy coontent for one another
so yea thats how the evolution of personal texts and videos online follow the same trajectory
i hope you feel more educated on internet history
i have learned so much useless shit like this on my time on the internet that i am practice a scholar on the subject
i basically already have a phd on internet history and memeology

so ig thats the sort of stuff that youd post on a digital garden, but the rambles i said i wouldnt do would be done and linked
yea sounds like a good project to start
i conveniently have a list of thing i wanna talk about
yea sometimes i just write for fun, i have texts similar to this that never got published

>(case in point: most ibs)
i meant most ib users and how they are unwilling to engage textwall, sometimes being outright hostile towards them
>from a technologistic pov
i should have said techno-logistic, so its clearer what i meant
>i am practice a scholar
<i am practically a scholar
yea on a real website id just edit the misspellings in-place and explain the reasons on the commit message

also im getting hungry i think i will take a time off writing to avoid death
later

P7661
>i meant most ib users and how they are unwilling to engage textwall, sometimes being outright hostile towards them
tl;dr

>denpa is retired but he is welcome too
Retired but fucking not dead yet.
[spoiler: Just kdding, I skimmed through it.]

why don't you ever shut the fuck up? you seriously should. just don't say any more.

>nofap
stopped reading there m8

Sorry, what the dooth is "ig"?

That the internet makes you stupid was a self-fulfilling prophecy. But it wasn't always. In the glory days of geocities, when an underage anon could stumble upon cp and not realize what he was seeing because www meant wild wild west and underage meant sheltered rather than jailbait, the simple actions of connecting to, browsing, and contributing to the www required technical proficiencies and insider knowledge which all but precluded bitching normalniggers from access. It was great, but as good as it was, it was never intended to last, because somewhere in the hearts of the young adult male college educated white IT professionals which made up the bulk of the cowboys that raised us was the most idiotic thing imagineable: regret for not having sex in high school. They just wanted to get laid, to be valued members of society, to 'earn' the respect and admiration of the eternally bitching normalniggers. Lol. We live in society. Lmao even. It was because of their jealous, lustful, ignorant stupidity that the www was taken from a place of meritocracy and intelligence to high school never ends. All the creativity and autism spent was wasted. Even we who were underage contributed what we could because all of us longed for a better world than the shit one we found ourselves stuck in. But the fun of boys' club can never compete with the temporary hormonal mania of wanting to coom in a wet hole. We should have cut off the cancer completely, whatever the cost. Case in point, OP, who obviously cares about likes on social media. In your next life, please try to avoid the internet because it makes you stupid.

dodgy

P7991
>Sorry,
you are forgiven
now lurk more
P8550
>contributing to the www required technical proficiencies and insider knowledge which all but precluded bitching normalniggers from access
yea nothing better than an exclusive club only autismos are allowed to join
>It was because of their jealous, lustful, ignorant stupidity that the www was taken from a place of meritocracy and intelligence to high school never ends.
>ignorant stupidity
well said
i think nerds thought that showing off their leet h4xx0r skillz to girls by building place for normies to socialize [spoiler: cof zucc cof] would help them score, but nobody told them that open signs of autism makes any girl dry up immediately, so they sacrificed their holy land for naught.
>All the creativity and autism spent was wasted.
i dont think thats exactly true, usenet still exists and the wild west culture that permeated personal website of the 90s is still alive in a way
obviously everything changed with time, but that's natural, if normies hadnt overrun cyberspace everything would still have chanced in some way, probably for the better, but still
>Even we who were underage contributed what we could
yea i think i used to make more useful contributions to online communities back in my teens, probably due to having waaaaay too much free time
>But the fun of boys' club can never compete with the temporary hormonal mania of wanting to coom in a wet hole.
the highest cognitive functions lay on the foundation of the lowest carnal desires, that's just how humans work
intellectual cope in all sorts of ways to explain that they are above carnal desire or whatever, but one way or another they are still using their intellect to deal with carnal desires, be it lust for sex or fear of death
its funny how immortality projects are the favorite endeavour of the elite, when they are nothing more than a manifestation of the primal fear of death and oblivion
>We should have cut off the cancer completely, whatever the cost.
just like regular cancer is born from the regular functions of the body and natural selection, internet cancer is born from the way human psychology works and the only way to stop it from metastasising would be to violate some fundamental law of nature
for example, i am fairly sure that if a sure treatment for cancer is ever found, it will need to be done regularly because new tumors will inevitably keep growing
so cutting off the cancer by it self wont solve anything since new cancer will always grow again
>In your next life, please try to avoid the internet because it makes you stupid.
no need to tell me
ill be sure to reincarnate as a wild apple tree

but he is so cute
dont hate the zucc

P7655
Instead of nofap maybe you could do it in the evenings when you want to be tired.